In my harried state to deliver
Do I fall short of my best?
Chasing deadlines, dates and appointments
Do I lay myself too thin across them all?
In my rush to please everyone
Trying to avoid any disappointments
Does it secretly fester within me?
A chaos within my head
Where I ignore my short comings
For busyness and the dashing around
Until that moment of silence
A pause
When thoughts come to a sudden halt
Change their direction completely
And begin a rapid-fire assault of questions
Attacking myself
Digging and delving for the discovery of truth
Am I happy?
Is this what I want to do?
Is this where I want to be?
In the blink of an eye life is dissected
Desires, dreams, and wishes examined
And either
A plan laid out to alter the unfulfilling course
Or gratitude given for a life that I chose
Or last and hopefully not the choice I will make
An acceptance that this is it
The loss of hope and possibility in a sad surrender
Debbie Gravett © 2022.03.08
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