For a moment the wind caught my sails
They billowed in gusts of motivated excitement
Plans for success charting a course into the future
A magnificent journey imagined in calm waters
Short lived when my mind sucks out all the air
Creating a shadowed vacuum to drown in
Reprimanding myself for floating with this dream
Presenting the magnitude of my inept capabilities
Doubt being persuaded into factual being
Sunk before I’d properly boarded the boat
Will I ever manage to make this maiden voyage?

Debbie Gravett © 2020.12.21

FOWC: Inept
RDP: Billow
Image by S. Hermann & F. Richter from Pixabay

7 thoughts on “Self-Sabbotage

  1. This is a wonderfully written poem. I’ve been labelled a self-sabotager by people because I stopped then taking liberties with my stories and maybe got nowhere as a result. I dont eant success if getting means I mo longer like my stories though .

    Anyway beautiful poem I love tge sailing angle reflecting life. Well done.

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    1. I don’t believe self-sabotage is respecting yourself and your work and stopping others taking advantage. In fact the total opposite. For me it is when I stand in my own way of creating.

      Thank you. Have an abundantly creative day.

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      1. Agreed. Trouble is whatever we write no mattr how good a job we do. If its to be published in anyway, it will almost certainly be rewritten and changed a lot just because editors and publishers want it ‘their way’ and that’s so wrong.

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      2. True. That is why so many people have turned to self-publishing. I guess it all depends on your reason for publishing. If it is to make money you need to appeal to as many people as possible, but if you just want your words out there, then it is different. Traditional publishers have to make money.
        I’ve got to get out of my own way first and get the words on the page and then I can consider one of them 😆

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      3. Self publishing is only for the rich., You still need a fortune to get the book ready to publish. More if you actually want to sell more than 5 copies.

        I wanted to publish so people could enjoy my special sleuth as much as I do. I have little money and no future, I didn’t expect to make any of either with writing and thanks to criminal publishers, uncaring editors, lack of money and cruel people I’ll never even see my books published.

        I hope you get your up in lights though.

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